I WILL TRY

My life is not that easy
I wana look in the mirror and not see a distorted figure
I want to be happy in me
And not for everybody.
I wana look in the mirror and see smiles as bright as the sun
A girl pure in body whose heart has never been parted
Forcibly like the parting of my legs.
I want not to be embarrassed and run from my pain.
But look me in the eyes and say “ I’m beautiful”
I want true love.
It’s the scariest thing in the world to confront the mirror
That so blatantly shows me what I am,
But hides what I can be.
I will try to share my whole with the world.
I will try.

June 9, 2006
Open heart surgery
Separating two chambers of one heart